Disclosure has been on my mind a lot recently. I haven’t really disclosed to many people and when I have there have been mixed responses. Generally positive, but of course some responses that originate in misunderstanding about what autism or ADHD actually are. Responses that can be difficult to deal with.
Using my ‘Neurodivergency Disclosure Model‘ as a general guide, I’m planning to disclose to my manager today. I’ve got some objectives for this academic year that I want to discuss that would involve me being more open about being neurodivergent. It’ll be the first step in that pathway.
I am feeling my own pressure to disclose at work, and to be public about it. There are no senior colleagues who are open about their disability or difference, if there indeed is anyone who identifies in that way. There is already work around inclusion in my organisation, and a commitment to continue to develop as an inclusive organisation. Other (less senior) colleagues have been interviewed about their differences, videos which are shared on the intranet. I think these colleagues are fabulous and brave, and that they are doing important things to dispel stereotypes, increase understanding, and challenge prejudice. I think that a senior person ‘coming out’ as neurodivergent could be really important for other colleagues. But then I think I’m full of my own importance and no-one will care a jot!
There is the fear of potentially negative consequences for my career and that I’ll lose credibility due to the prejudices and misunderstandings about autism and ADHD. One moment I think I should stay hidden and masked, the next I think that is weak and disingenuous, and most definitely not being my authentic self. Not that I really know what my authentic self is – I am the definition of ‘high masking’.
Has anyone got experience of public disclosure at work, at a university or any organisation, and has words of wisdom to share?